i am being boggled by so many issues now i wish i have an escape pod like sandy in spongebob in spongebob, all she does is press a button and a pod will appear and bring her to texas. ( this connection to georgie is purely coincidental )
i feel like a toast bread, a toasted overtime one, so dark, so bitter and do hard.
i am still searching for myself, looking for a meaning, sometimes i'd just feel like my shoulders cant take the weight any longer. although i am not needing to be dependent, i think i ought to lean back a little. independance is also about knowing when to rest your soul, not that i have one.
i did not get to eat my es teller 77 food today, got rather upset about it.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
okay, we had mid autumn festival concert thing today. and there was this item were the chinese cultural society sang this 'thinking of you' su dong po poem that was turned into a song who by covered by faye wong. ( it was not a good item by the way ) anyway, i like the poem alot even though i dont understand a single line and had to reply to the english translation give to us in a handout.
when will the moon be clear and bright ?
with a cup of wine in my hand, i asked the blue sky.
i dont know what season it would be in the heavens on this night.
i'd like to ride the wind and fly home.
yet i fear the crystal and jade mansions are much too high and cold for me.
dancing with my moon-lit shadows,
it does not seem like the human world.
the moon rounds the red manison stoops to to silk-pad doors.
shines upon the sleepless bearing no grudge.
why does the moon tend to be full when people are apart ?
people may have sorrow or joy, be near and far apart.
the moon may be dim and bright, wax or wane.
this has been going on since the beginning of time.
may we all be blessed with longevity,
though far apart, we are still able to share the beauty of the moon together.yes, some part of it sounds really weird, well i didnt do the translating so its okay. ( the real chinese version is very impressive, and they are only impressive because i a)cant read the chinese characters and b)dont know what the characters mean ) i just like the moon questions.
on a personal note, i am very hungry and there is nothing to eat at home. and on a second thought, i rather stay in singapore and eat katong laksa even if i was offered an all expenses paid trip to disney land. technically, you
cant feel happy just because you are standing beside mickey mouse or donald duck, you just merely feel
excited because you are in an over-rated place ( you wont know what until you get out of disney land ) and you realise you are too old for mouses and ducks, okay and also because you have
never been there before. disney land is just conspiring to cheat you of all your money.
i like subway sandwiches, okay i just have to wonder about, someone.
ps. dont beat around the bush. because one fine day, bush will nuke you. alright, even if he doesnt, there's still tony blair, chirac and putin ! ( save georgie ! )
7:00 PM
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
i need to visit disney land, they claim to make people happy.
i cant stand to listen to really happy sounding songs, they make me want to throw myself into a seizure. but i also cant stand to listen to ultra depressing songs, they make me want to slide down my rubbish chute. so i have a very limited choice of songs.
i know i am starting to sound depressing again, but today is a rather depressing day and the night looks extremely depressing, i am going to just go depress my depression.
i am going watch mr garrison's new vagina.
to dance along to the light of the day
9:59 PM